EFAs

Lily. . . In NO way are you a pain. Just like any of us, you are a valuable member of this site, keeping it alive and well. I don't know you that well. . .so you may think it is rude of me to be saying these things, but thinking that you are useless is one of the worst possible things you can do to yourself.

I know because I also have depression, along with aspergers which makes it very difficult for me to communicate with others and fit in with society. I had the same problem, when I volunteer at the animal shelter. I think I am useless there, that I am nothing more than a burden, always needing help and being guided on what to do, even though I've been going there for nearly 4 months. And I'm not very independent. . . even though I am 16, i can't do anything by myself. I can't find a job. . . and simple tasks are daunting to me. At one point I just gave up on myself, and chose to stay isolated. I wouldn't speak to anyone, my friends, family, no one. I stopped eating, and wanted to do nothing but loathe my creation. For hours I would just lay on my bed thinking on how useless I was. My mom wanted to take me to a doctor, to talk to someone, or get a larger dose of anti depression medication, but I refused to even take one step out of the house let alone respond to her.
But from this experience, I've learned that isolation just makes you feel worse. And even though your mind tells you to do nothing, and that your body feels awful, its best to get up and go be with other people, even if you hate it. Depession messes with your mind, makes you focuss on nothing but the negatives. But I got over my slump after my mom dragged me back to volunteer, this time her helping me. I left feeling fulfilled and more positive, which helped me start making the right choices. I have dreams I want to finish, and while the road may be hard, I try to always stay on the right path, punching my emotions and disabilities in the face.
I don't know what you are going through. . .but I do know that you are NOT some useless girl with no purpose and future. Everyone has a destiny, it is just our jobs to find it. And if you want to loose that game, go right ahead and let your head mess with you, its not my job to decide what you do, but only to give advice. In life we are both teachers and followers. Influencing others, but also copying others. It upsets me that you would think such a thing, thinking that we do not like you. I for sure liked you. I loved your character and you seemed to be a really fun person in the chatbox.

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I hope you feel well soon Lily. .  . and I wish you luck with your pack, I hope it grows to be very successful. If you chose to leave, fine. If you honestly think you mean nothing to any of us. . . just let the shadow in your head fill you with such information.
Am I over reacting. . .? Yeah, most likely. I'm not trying to make you feel worse. . . and I apologize if I may have come off too strict. . . but listen. . .we care about ya okay. . .? Don't ever think your're useless to us. . . there are people out there who love and appreciate you.

Oh. . . and my apologies for spamming this thread. . .

One of my packs is getting a bit busy... A lot busy.
I can't really RP a lot until I get a Vice/Beta on there. (I cant even go fishing without a random stranger getting near the pups, and the wolves on there are very protective of the pups cx)
But I have someone who I think is fit to be a Vice on there, so I might be back/whatever soon. But it is unsure. >.<

Grr...